I feel sadness and shame because I am a dishonest person
all the mistakes in my life, the people I've hurt and the things that I have done to myself are just because of my dishonesty
For a long time I thought I was on the brink of a great discovery. Like all the things I was doing were going to somehow make sense in the end
But it wasn't like that
Now I feel so lost, I don't know where I am . Where am I?
reference points are dissappearing sense of character is gone
My family thinks Im sick, I 've got no friends and worst of all I am so far away from the only person who ever loved me in my ugliness
who loved me in my ugliness
Have you ever loved a person in their ugliness?
I think I did
ONce
and it was because I opened my heart
I mean truly let this person see me for who I was
and and
it hurt so much
it was sick, frightening and painfully warm
and if only I hadn't run away
If only I had realized
that this is the way to live
the only way for a person like me to live
exposed, vulnerable, painfully warm
Now I think I will take a leap, a second chance if you will
Because my love you will be mine again
I am still really scared though
I just want to close my eyes
but it is so bright inside
so bright inside