I finally have it.
Misery is a Butterfly, by Blonde REdhead
My favorite piece of music ever, the whole album is the soundtrack to my life.
I haven't been this happy in a long time.

The moon makes a mighty mess of me
Keeping me awake, restless, dreamless futile sleep
I compose chants of bitter rain, sonnets of inherent apology
All in faith that I will be delivered from this motive to lose sight of you
I pray for devotion, fervent respite for my love
This fantasy that manifests itself only in my dreams
Where all is black, drenched of color and taste, except
for a swirl of violet, pink and blue
A velvet dress,and a honey smile
the one and only dancer in my heart

I am a MoonChild
and as such
I will remain forever unchanged
You will move forward and back
But I will still be where you left me
Your body will pass, you heart will grow
And my promise will remain
full of love and desire
from the day you first saw me
till the moon sets me free

YAY one month till June
CAnt wait till June
Imma just keep going to school, saying yes to everything, smiling and nodding
And then I wont be forced to put up with immature children anymore that cry and rant all day about how great or miserable things are for them.

Im tired
I cant always go off pretending its purple and sweet all the time
It takes too much energy and heart to turn it all upside down day by day
I always seem like a brat who's too indulged in himself to actually worry
But I happen to need a decent night of sleep and an honest smile once in a while too.
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I am gonna leave Deviant art, stupid computer burden and all things art, pencil and paint everything at least until I feel like opening my eyes again
Enough rant, im tough boy with chin hair
EARTH DAY IMMA GO CELEBRATE BY ROLLING IN DA DIRT